life with the pain

so many time has i do, but in the end,,, i never have anything.... why ??!!!!!
what i got just a pain,,i don't know why....

am I expecting too much if I am only one happiness that I can get ??

or..

or I did not deserve to get anything ???!!

really, i'm not understand why...
why it's must happen to me ???

somebody tell me whyy !!!!!!!!

whyyy ??!!!!